Hey there fair subscribers. You may be asking yourself "where was Jay's usual subscriber Sunday post last week?" And that is a valid question to ask. But I have a simple explanation: I had to put my priorities elsewhere for a hot second. I had a mission to attempt.
A couple of weeks ago there seemed to be a shift in the comedy winds, and the Comedy Store started passing door guys again. This was something I had basically written off from happening again for a good long while. And then all of a sudden two door guys got passed in a row, and now I'm sitting here thinking "well, shit, why not me? Am I still not good enough? This hurts!" Which, of course, is an indicator that I need to jump on the phone and talk out my feelings with some friends, fellows, and trusted colleagues. So I do.
The combination of people I talk to – my Al-Anon sponsor, an AA sponsee, and one of my oldest and best comedy friends – say variations on the same thing: it's time for you to get some clarity about where you're at in the system. I can't keep going on like this, freaking out and letting all of my insecurities rule my brain every time I see another peer get something I want. My internal Karen wants to scream at someone for cutting the line, while my higher power works to remind me that there is no line. Seems like it’s about time to get actual answers about where I stand.
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